This Easter season I wanted to take to the word. Dive head first into the story of Jesus and what happened to him on the cross, I wanted to really truly understand what happened that day.
I know I was supposed to read the Easter story this year and really let is soak into my heart because of what I'm going through. For the first time I understood this story and the true meaning. I wept while reading it.
I saw myself calling out to God earlier this year, "My God, My God, why have you forsaken me?" just as Jesus had on the cross. (Matthew 27: 46) But then I came to understand God was not forsaking Jesus that day or me today. He will never forsake us, that is His promise to us. I see my God through different eyes in this story than I ever have before.
"...He will not leave you or forsake you."
Deuteronomy 31:6
"...He will not leave you or forsake you."
Deuteronomy 31:6
I constantly say that no one understands the cruelty of knowing your child is dying, unless you've been where I am. But God knows. He watched his sons skin be literally torn from the cross for all of us. He watched his son die for the sins of His people. He knew it would happen from the very beginning and He didn't take it back!
He weeps with me when I weep and He hurts for me when I hurt. To me this season is one I needed to deeply reflect on. To pull myself up off the floor, out of my sorrow and into the light of Jesus Christ. To fully understand the price that my Lord and savior paid for me. IT IS FINISHED. How amazing is that? Because of Christ I will get to know His glory forever and ever!
Do me a favor if you're a mother, read this story through the eyes of God the father. Read this story as if Jesus was your son. Weep for Him and the cruelty that was unveiled that day. Let your tears flow for the people who mocked Him, for the crown of thorns that was ripping at the flesh on his precious head. Imagine your child being spit on in disgust by onlookers and being beaten right before your eyes. And then being led away from you to be crucified. Watching your child go through what Jesus endured is unfathomable. But God did it, He saw it all and was willing to let His son go through that for you and I.
I am forever grateful for that. I am in awe of our God. I needed this story to shake me in a way that I never let it before because I was never a mother before. The price that He paid for me is a picture of His perfect love for us. I want to remember this story even after Easter passes. To constantly look back on this story if I ever have a doubt in my mind, if I ever question my circumstances. Knowing that the son of God gave his life for me is all the proof I need to believe. People say Christianity is blind faith, that you can't see it but you just believe, this may be true but I see now. I visualize this story as if I was there that day and for me, my eyes have been opened. I am no longer blind, I see God so much clearer than I ever have. I have come to know him more through my suffering and through the suffering that His son experienced for us.
Listen to this song below after you read the story & close your eyes. Really listen to what is being said in this song. It brought me to tears.
Happy Easter to you all!
XOXO.
Tori
You Loved My Heart To Death by Shane & Shane
It's taken me some time to believe
That when You said it's done
That's what You mean
That when they drove the nails through Your hands
You did not recant
You didn't take it back
I drank the cup of death
It's running through my veins
I chose my pride instead
Of the glory of Your name
All the wrath of God that I
Deserve with every breath
Fell upon Him
And He loved my heart to death
It's taken me some time to believe
There'll never come a day
That You'll ever leave
That when I drive the nails through Your hands
You do not recant
You never take it back
Oh I drank the cup of death
It's running through my veins
I chose my pride instead
Of the glory of Your name
All the wrath of God that I
Deserve with every breath
Fell upon Him
And He loved my heart to death
You put it in the grave
Brought it back to life
Put it in the grave
Brought it back to life
Put it in the grave
Brought it back to life
Oh I drank the cup of death
It's running through my veins
I chose my pride instead
Of the glory of Your name
All the wrath of God that I
Deserve with every breath
Fell upon Him
And He loved my heart to death
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