[FAMILY PICTURES]

These are just a few of the amazing pictures Heidi Hope was able to capture of my little family.  I am so overwhelmed with love for these two people and I couldn't imagine my life without them. This little boy is all I ever dreamed of since I knew I wanted a baby and all my dreams about him came to life the moment I met him face to face. He is honestly the most loving, happy and cuddly baby I ever met and I am so lucky he is ours. The first time I saw these pictures I started bawling because this is what heaven looks like in my mind. Obviously I won't know until I get there but families are forever so I hope this is what it looks like when we all are embracing each other up there with the big guy :) My cup is overflowing with blessings at this point in my life and I know at any moment that could change so I grasp tightly to these people of mine and love them with everything I have inside me. Thank you to the Heidi Hope team for making our experience so wonderful and for being the sweetest humans ever! If you are in the RI/MA/CT area you need to have your pictures done by them, life will never be the same after. I was able to see my family in the purest most special way through these photographs and I am forever thankful to them for that. 

thanks for stopping by and letting me share these treasures with you! 

xoxo, tori. 

[ANOTHER DAY, ANOTHER ROMPER]

WHAT I'M WEARING:

romper -- nordstrom // shoes -- tory burch // bag -- louis vuitton // watch -- michael kors // bracelets --  alex and ani // 

[BOLD FLORAL]

Hey beauties!

I posted a picture of me wearing this dress on IG but you could only see the bottom and so many of you were emailing me asking where I got it so I knew I just had to share it with you all. This dress is another one of the things I got at nordstrom its from Top shop and I love it. I don't know if its the bold print or the way it fits but it had me at hello. I'm all about not only what looks good but it has to be practical too. If i can't see myself with my son on my hip then it probably isn't for me. I paired it with my favorite gladiator sandals and a floppy hat because those two things scream summer to me with this dress. As always I got it a size bigger because I wanted it to be longer, this mama has legs for days and not in the model way haha. 

I hope you all enjoy your week and really live in the moment while being intentional with the energy you're leaving behind. If you're feeling down in the dumps that day help yourself out of the funk but reminding yourself that the feelings you have today are fleeting and tomorrow will be a better day. 

Thanks for stopping by!

xoxo, tori. 

what I'm wearing:

Dress -- Topshop via Nordstrom // Shoes -- windsor store old, similar [here] // Bag -- Target old, similar [here] // Hat -- Forever 21 similar [here] //

[ROMPIN' AROUND]

happy monday!
this is one of the rompers I was able to pick up at the nordstrom anniversary sale and i'm obsessed with it. its a little different then anything i've worn before and i think thats why i love it. rompers are the best because its a whole outfit in one item. little to no effort goes into an outfit like this! just add a cute bag and your favorite heels and you're ready for date night or a night out with your girls! this outfit can so easily be transitioned into the day time by adding some booties or a sandal. hope you all had a fabulous weekend :)
xoxo, tori.

what i'm wearing:
romper -- ASTR via nordstrom // shoes -- target old, similar [here] // bag -- windsor store old, similar [here] // rings -- rocksbox [use code exploratorifashionxoxo for your first month free!] // hair extensions-- bellami hair [colored the ones i had so i don't have a specific color ]

[MERCI MERCI MERCI]

Happy Friday!

I hope you all had a great week + are looking forward to the weekend as much as I am :) This is the first week in a long time that I wasn't constantly thinking about Jaxons sickness. I have given a lot of the situation to God, I try to give him ALL of it but its hard as you can imagine. I really choose to be positive most days but some I am sad and cry and thats ok. I think Ive learned over the past couple months how healthy it is to cry, its therapeutic. I never liked it and I never wanted people to see me as "weak" but to be honest the more I cry the more strength I find. Its at my darkest times in life that I have found who I am. I wanted to quickly talk to you guys about how Ive been sorting through my feelings and where I am at right now in my life.

Bottom line I feel blessed that I was chosen to be Jaxon's mom. I know that I take the best care of him possible. That he could have so easily been some else's. That him and I have a bond that is indescribable. I think about so much day to day. certain things trigger my sadness. sometimes I feel guilty for not thinking about our future as much and only really living in the moment. I feel like the sun is shining but it's pouring rain all at the same time. People will tell me how they don't even know how I deal with everyday but it takes the same amount of energy to be happy that it does to be sad. I choose happiness. I choose giving my son a good mixture of love and stability but also talking to him about what is happening. I used to never talk to him about his disease. some how I thought if I walked on egg shells around him it would make things easier for him but I know it doesn't work that way. he's a baby yes, but I want him to know what's going on. I don't talk to him about the future in a negative way because honestly it scares the crap out of me to think about what might happen so I share my dreams with him. The same dreams for him now that I did when I was pregnant with him + the same when I was holding him for he first time. I make him promises and I tell him things I will do for him. these things aren't false and I believe with all my heart my son will be able to thrive and grow and make memories with our family. I will never stop braving this storm and I will never give up. I will never accept that his disease will take him from me and I'm not naive or in denial. I am simply choosing to believe God will heal Jax. I don't for one second doubt that my son will one day be free of this disease and it's by the power of God to determine how and when that happens. so everyday i wake up and pray and face this day with the attitude that I am so blessed that I was able to wake up and see him smiling. this whole process has forced me to look at life through different eyes. I am so grateful for that. I don't take one cry, laugh or kiss for granted. it has made me love deeper, cry harder and make better choices. for the first time in my life I love who I have become and all because God entrusted me with one of his most precious gifts. lucky doesn't even begin to cover how I feel.

xoxo, tori.

what i'm wearing:
top + skirt -- roolee boutique // necklace -- francesca's // shoes -- tory burch //

[LEOPARD ALL OVER]

 

Good Afternoon Loves!

I am currently sitting on my porch with the sun shining and the birds chirping while sipping on some sweet tea trying to get my daily dose of vitamin D! I honestly love the summer time, next to fall its my favorite season, it just makes you feel happier. One of the many reasons I love summer is maxi dresses. If you haven't been able to tell I wear them quite a lot! They are just so comfortable and flattering who wouldn't love them? A lot of people ask me, "If I'm short how do I pull off a maxi dress?" Just because you are short doesnt mean you should rule maxis out of your wardrobe. My favorite thing to do with a maxi that is a little too long is to make a knot at the end of it so its tied up at the bottom. Not only do you get to show off your shoes but you can also avoid tripping or looking like the maxi is swallowing you. Another way to make it shorter is to add a belt to it! If you're tall and feel like you can never get one thats long enough try my "size up" approach which is where you get a size bigger then what you normally wear to add some length. I hope this helped and if you all have any questions please don't hesitate to email me or ask me a question on my IG page.

 [victoriamarocco@yahoo.com + @exploratorifashion]

as always, thanks for stopping by! 

xoxo, tori.

What I'm Wearing:
Maxi -- via nordstrom rack [mink pink] similar [here] // Shoes -- windsor store old, similar [here] // Watch -- michael kors // bracelets -- alex and ani //